250 obese right now, hoping to start today, compared to cousins my whole life being were the same age a few month apart, their thin beautiful high in fashion girls one can sing/model the other can model, act and is a super genious, ive always been the tomboy, gamer, mostly sports with the guys and never been able to drop my weight, highly artistic. my rib cage always feels near toppl which confuses them telling me im not obese im big bone but doctor says im obese. my tummy sags not really proud of it. kinda tired of being told your gonna be fat and ugly instead of pretty and slim likeyour cousins by my aunts/uncles/grams/sisters. it hurts ya know. Im a latin 23 yr old adult cancerian zodiac so extra emotional i guess. I dont know im just ready to do something abut all this, for my kid, my bf, and for me...idk why but i feel like my bf is ashamed to walk with me sometimes though he tells me im beutiful just dont feel it...im told ill never be a size 0-1 for obvious reasons even if my body were anerexic my bone structure wont allow it im told but i can me slim, tone, and curvy. i really want to do this andive got the tears writting this post as proof lol. in my family if your not thin your not beautiful or so ive believed growing up being tugged on and having my body compared to theirs.

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