Well, I did it. I kind of breezed through the beginning, not even resting between sets it was so easy. I was also trying to save a little time and I think I cut off about 10 minutes from the whole workout. I really need to get heavier weights so I am challenged more. Push-ups weren't as hard, but still not even close to where I need to be. I did the first set normal and the other 2 off the counter and still struggled. I did my other workout video afterward and did get a little emotional when I started to struggle. I'm not overweight or unhealthy physicially by no means, but I am not as I used to be. I have let my personal life take control of me. The lack of motivation and care is a result of my relationship. I know it is. I always knew it was part of it, but while struggling I realized how much of myself I have given to it and it really hurts. I am an emotional person and live with my heart on my sleeve but getting this kind of emotional makes me angry. I don't know what to do. I will continue to workout and grow through this journey. I do feel a little better after working out. My body feels good. I am so glad I made myself do it. Music has always been therapy for me and when I put it on this morning it helped motivate me. Maybe I'll take a long drive and get lost in it today while the top is still off my Jeep. I need some fresh air. 

Protein shake for breakfast but that's it. I think my emotions are making me nauseous.

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