So ... I just signed up for this site. A couple of summers ago I lost 25 or so pounds and was happy and kept it off. Then this summer I have just lost all motivation to workout. It's bad. I have almost gained all my 25 pounds back. Not okay. I knew I had gained some back, it happens when you don't workout, but getting on the scale Tuesday -- I was not prepared for the number. So I told myself that I need to be healthier and exercise again!

This is always easier said than done. In my house food is always present and not the healthiest. For example, I tell myself Tuesday tomorrow I start on the new path of healthy. I come home for dinner on Wednesday, they order three pizzas, great! Next day, family cookout-- with all the fixings, awesome! It is just so hard to be fixated on healthy when all that appears at my house is fatty, greasy, delicious food... Also, it's hard to motivated when the guy you're with has no problem with your body. I just have to do this for me...

I'm 24, I have always been confident and outgoing and have always been on the bigger side. I am 5'11, which helps me not look as much as I weigh. I like the personality of me and I have an image of me in my head, which I assume as real until I see me in a mirror or window -- then I think wow I look like that? Really? It's always sad when realities and images get crushed. Like I said I am a confident woman, and I always will be, but sometime in those mirror moments I lose a bit of it and get down on myself.

Everyone has weight loss goals, most are outlandish and I have those lofty dreams too-- I also have real and achievable ones. I woukd just like to lose the 25 pounds again. Lofty would be like 100, but I was happier with the 25 gone off my body and liked the mirror glances a little more. One day I hope to be within reach of lofty, but I'll be realistic for now.

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