Well, tomorrow is the big day. I start my diet/workout. I am pretty excited, but it feels like a big cloud as well. I hope I do as good as I expect. Pretty sure I should lower my self-expectations. To be honest, I'm pretty afraid of failing, again. I think the hardest thing will be the first month (the time it takes to create a habit). I'm hoping to get some pretty good encouragement from whoever reads this. I went from a size 4 to a size 12 in 2 years. Pretty depressing huh? And I pretty much have no one to blame but myself. I didn't have children, an illness, or any other crutch. I just became sedintary. I'm also newly married, and I want to be the beautiful wife my husband fell in love with.
I think the hardest thing about this whole thing will be the nutrition. I'm a server so I either eat all the time, or every 18-24 hours. And when I do eat, I eat fast food. This stupid weight has screwed up more than my pants size, My sleep patterns have suffered, my self esteem, my body image, and to be honest, my income. It's sad to say but, a pretty and fit server makes more than an ugly, out of shape server. 
One of the biggest things I want to gain from this is, I want to gain enough cardio that I can start running with my husband. I have a heart condition that has became worse when I gained weight. So I want to lose weight, increase cardio endurance. I really look up to my husband becuase he always helps me and supports me so I really want to start running with him, becuase with his job, my job, and my college schedule, we never spend time together. I'm looking forward to this growth in my life. This means more to me than a waist size, its a lifestyle change, a habit change.

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